repulsion is attraction and repulsion

you cannot be repulsed by a thing

unless attraction brings
it close enough for you to be
repulsed by it

what if? is nothing more than what if?

we treat 'what if?' as if we are about to embrace a fork in the road,
foreseeing our perceived desire and its opposite (which we do, or do not want)

'what if?' is an entity of itself

it does not stand between opposing desires

it does not embrace, or offer 'choice'


'what if?' is a thought which triggers feelings of uncertainty, or vice versa

the two harmonize, through feeding from eachother

this fades, only when we are confronted with the reality
of what was always going to 'happen'

is there the precognition of this 'happening'?

yes, a precognition is realized as 'theory' through a thought embracing
the opposite of the perceived desire

the thought perceived as 'theory' triggers the emotion of uncertainty,
which in turn prepares a person for the reality to come

'what if?' is a shimmering vessel of uncertainty and insecurity

it is perfect


and temporary

it is as temporary as the thing it prepares us for

choice

people 'think' they have free-will, but thats it -

its just a thought

it is easier to rid the world of love than racism

there are those people who stand on the picket line and oppose this thing called racism. they are in my mind, quite frankly - a bunch of fucking idiots

it is easier to rid the world of love than racism

racism has no intelligible qualities, it cannot be put to debate, it cannot be educated out of existence, or rationalized

it is pure hatred. the kind that sees something of ethnic variation to itself and is repulsed to the point of murderous rage

these people who 'vote' for racist political parties, because they see 'ethnics' taking their jobs are not racists. they are ignorant - they can be educated, they can at some point be exposed to a point of view that may shatter their original opinion and they can even feel remorse for what they once 'thought'

the true racist does not act out in the world of debate and ideas. they do not intellectualize hate. they cannot. racism has no home in the political world. its agenda is to murder this ethnicity, which is so visible and so repulsive. the home of racism is the back alley, hidden in the mind of this world. a most private place in the human frame.

they will never share it. they cannot

but they will secretly greet it in those who are brave enough to act

those who are brave enough to kill

to attempt is not enough

the political right wing are not racists. they are intellectual / emotional manipulators. this is what arouses them

the racist is aroused by murder

you do not know this hate, but you know this love

the love that has you make love

and want so much of this person that you cannot get close enough

you cannot be more 'inside' them, or they inside you

this attraction so deep, so un-quantifiable

seen through the lens of repulsion so deep,
so un-quantifiable

what will it have you do?

there is no way out

it is home

here

and will never have killed enough

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what is racism?

i was thinking this the other day

racism is a combination of at least these four emotions

fear, anger, attraction and repulsion

what do you think?

i am against the image of myself

i want to be on that balcony looking out..

but then i would not be the one who is observing this image, from this viewpoint

if someone else were there to see this image, with me in it - i would happily stand on that balcony and forfeit this view, in the knowing that this was the image being seen

death of a rising star

it is quite easy to fall into the belief that life is about fulfilling our potential

how crippling this becomes for the person who cannot quantify their desires to achieve

this state in which we find

and support them

to tell them they could be so much more.
is it possible they could become addicted to this?

i think the real question is, could we love and accept them as they have presented themself and not expect anything else?

as many have lived and died without realizing what was possible in them - the soil is as rich and equally untouched

and if this 'acceptance' were to ignite in them a new state

then this is where they shall be

thought is its own meaning

there is nothing to oppose the mind as it imposes itself onto things, because opposition only exists in the mind