Monday, 4 October 2010

stages of individual experience





this system describes the totality of life experiences possible for any person who lives in a socialized mass, in a reductionist sense. its what happens when people live communually.

everyone will find their place on the 'map', because this is the way life 'plays out'. there is no reality outside of it at this point in so called 'time'.

aligning the mind with systems that describe the whole may cause spontaneous awakening

please observe the limitations (in a reductionist sense) of so called ego based existence :)


consensus

in these 3 stages the views, values and beliefs the individual has are a total reflection of the society they are born into. they have no desire to cross reference their social beliefs with the beliefs of other societies. e.g. if they were born into a society that held the view 'all alcohol is bad for you', being taught this as a child by their parents - they would grow up believing that 'all alcohol is bad'. there is no need for experimentation outside the social / familial norms. they believe what they are told and find their purpose through authority structures. these people correlate to the 'conformist' and 'ritualist' of robert k merton's theory of anomie and social structure. they make up the largest majority of any social mass. these are the people who insist that you must: vote, go to church, go to school, love the queen, eat 5 fruit and veg a day, etc.. their identity is drawn from the world around them - they have no identity, or views of their own

1) in the first stage the person's view of life is pretty similar to the drone of a beehive, or the working ant. work is the purpose of life. the service offered here is for the society at large, at the level of the product line. they have no desire to rise to higher positions in their work related role. they work as a means to survive. they have no appreciation for the creativity, or individuality of those who are reflected by the individuated, or spiritual stages (the last statement rings true for all the conformist stages). people born into the individuated stages who have parents / families in the conformist stage, find their identity by rebelling from their parents views, values and beliefs - which for various reasons is a painful process.

people in all the conformist stages view relationships through the filter of the societies / beliefs of how men and women should relate to eachother. the man and woman have distinct roles and do not act outside of the parts they are 'supposed to' play. e.g. the woman will cook, clean and be an extension of the man's desires. homosexuality, or bi-sexuality will be seen as something that is wrong (if the religious beliefs the society has adopted state this, the people in this stage will reflect it).

2) in the second stage (as reflected by the symbol) the person desires to rise to a higher position in the society they are born into. their beliefs, views, etc are still an extension of that society and they have no desire to change things. they (like stage 1) may complain about the way things are from time to time, but will not have any creative ideas on how to make changes to cause a happier life for themselves, neither will they accept the creative ideas of others that can cause a revolution in the way things are. they will acknowledge education as a way to improve their position. they will attend universities as a way to attain this education. their view of others increases when they find out what type of degree that person holds. they want marriage, children, stable work, a holiday every year, etc..

a woman in this stage may don a 'power suit' and adopt a masculine persona in the office as a way to gain respect from her colleagues.

3) this person holds 'power' in the societies terms. it is here we find owners of large corporations, franchises, etc. this stage can also reflect the people who attend, or a part of institutions that are deemed 'superior' in their country of origin and around the world (amongst people who are in the conformist stage in different countries) these institutions are educational in nature and are seen to be elitist in some way.
a person in the conformist stages 2 and 3 would desire for their children to attend one of these institutions. the person who attends these places would be very proud of their achievement (their view of themself is gained through what the society says).

these people have knowledge of how society 'works' and because of this, are able to take charge. they are the managing directors, prime ministers, celebrities, and so on

as is seen by the symbol representing the 3rd stage of conformity, the journey 'upwards' never ends..

a note, in the book dark eros - thomas moore speaks of how the dictates of and conformity to the moral codes of a civilized society causes a compression within the still very active primal brain and how this compression is causing a distortion of our natural desires. these distorted desires are reflected by people who belong to any stage of individual experience. it is the part that most people suppress and are ashamed of - it is the part carl jung called the shadow

guilt gained through the idea of deviation is a large part of the conformist stage, it may however be most intense in the first stage of the individuated experience of life..

individuated

in the individuated stage, the person desires to find their identity irrespective of how they have been taught by the society / family at large - they desire to learn to think for themselves. the first 2 stages are traumatic, as the person is forced out of their comfort zone, which represents normality - family, security, nationality, racial identity, gender role, relationships in general.. it is where a person learns what they want through engaing in what they dont want. obviously, this process denotes the fact that this person does not yet know who they are. this knowledge doesnt tend to be known until the 3rd stage of individuation. the individuated stage is potentially extremely eruptive and volatile, but their are also great gifts to be found within

1) in the first stage, the person feels internally that they do not resonate with the ideals that are promulgated from the conformist's experience of life, not knowing how and 'why' they feel this way, 'causes' them to live a facade amongst their family and peers. externally, they adopt the life of someone who holds conformist views - in private life they will begin research into a different way of thought and action. their double life is lived through fear of judgement and reprisal from those who are in the conformist stage.
the person in this and the second stage find a sense of belonging in groups, which in some way 'protect' them from the reprisals of the conformist stage. in the first stage the group activity will be kept 'secret' from their friends and family who belong to some level of conformity. this is a very traumatic stage - it is where the family and society at large punish the individual for being different (causing the double life).

ive recently been working with people from eritrea, who were persecuted / tortured in their country of origin for holding christian beliefs (eritrea as a country only acknowledges islam). all of these people belong to the first stage of individuation, you can imagine the psychologial state that underpins this stage.

a note: these eritrean people have found themselves in this country and are reflecting the first stages of individuation. as a support worker, it is expected that myself and those who do the same work, help these people find positions of security within this country - effectively creating conformists out of them (the people who write policies are 3rd stage conformists and have no understanding of the deeper cyclical process of life). although, this is a christian country (which resonates with the beliefs of the eritrean people) the only way forward for these people is through the stages of individuation and not 'backwards' to the conformist stage (as they belong to the individuated stage). travelling backwards will only cause all that they have worked for to fall into meaninglessness at some point. we only find comfort through progression, however, most find it difficult to move into the unknown. the way i have dealt with the eritrean people is to subtly point towards the development of their 'individual' traits / characteristics / gifts.

the following is true for all stages of experience, progression through each stage is not easy for most and is often denoted by the life being lived seeming completely meaningless. the person often becomes depressed. it is through the depression that the new ideas reflecting the next stage emerge. as the 1st stage of individuation progresses to the 2nd stage, the ideas that emerge is the relativity of all life from all points of view..

2) in the 2nd stage the person is angry, this anger is directed towards the society at large and is great fuel for the journey that this person goes on to gain a greater understanding of life from as many different view points possible (as denoted in the symbol) - an understanding of the relativity of all life is what this person is beginning to attain. the anger also helps this person rebel and retract from the beliefs, morals, views, etc that they have picked up from the consensus. although they believe the rebellion to be complete, most of these people still hold some consensus views and may never totally rebel from them all. as was said earlier, a total picture of their identity is not yet attained at this point and for this reason there (in most cases) will not be a total plunge into the abyss. this person has many different ideas on how society can function in a different way, most of these ideas have been gleaned from writers who have been inspired in some way. people in the 2nd individuated stage recite the works of those who have been inspired by visions of a different social order, the people denoted by this stage do not have revolutionary ideas of their own. they are inherently directed to join groups, this is where they find their identity. this gives rise to certain political, hierichical and rebellious behaviours within said groups. on the outside this person looks and sounds like a rebel and is liberal in their outlook, those who are close to them (if only for a short while) will observe that they hold conservative (conformist) views, as they still partially resonate with the consensus, which in most cases (if they are strong enough to admit it) would horrify them. this resonance with the consensus views that are so anathema to them is the cause for rebellion, not realizing that what they most want to rebel from is themself, causes them to 'attack' the reflection of these traits they see in the outside world. i.e the person who gleanes as many conspiracy theories possible, totally conforming to the ideas that they have been told attacks the society for being sheep. when looking closer into the lives of these followers of conspiracy theories, it is often seen that they are working in positions that have no meaning to them, they have in some way surrendered to authorities they do not care for and are afraid to take the plunge into fulfilling their desires through their own creative efforts. this is a very angry and polarized person. polarized from the society at large and potentially polarized from the groups they 'belong' to. if they rebel from one group they will quickly find another group in which they find their belonging. alternating from group to group, is a way to find their identity through knowing what they are not.

all people in the second stage of individuation are highly idealistic and tie their 'success' to the achievement of their ideals.

every revolution that has been staged by these people has lead their group of followers into a puddle of shit and played directly into the hands of the system they have tried to rebel from - hahaha, because again, they have failed to comprehend the deeper processes of life - here the blind have led the blind

all people in the 2nd stage do not respect people who have no desire to travel, or study and understand the relativity of life. they project their own needs onto others and expect (conformity) their own needs to be reflected by the outside world.

the amount of information some of these people pick up can cause them to have a sense of the relativity of all life. these people may not have any desire to join groups and will not be able to align with any one system of thought. this person may be a loner. when this loner archetype becomes active the next stage of individuation is about to take form..

3) this is the prometheun. it is at this stage that the individual, through retracting from all 'external' focus and activity becomes inspired, by the knowledge that they are the thing which must change. this 'inspiration' can take many forms, the consistent thread amongst these people is reflected by the gandhi quote 'be the change you want to see in the world'. this stage, by and large, reflects the person who has in their possesion and can capitalize on some form of genius. this person has the innate capacity and ability to transform and revolutionize anything they put their minds to. this inspiration can make some of these people aware of the cycles of life as have been reflected through the entirety of history. these people have magical and even electric personalities. it is not often obvious by their appearance. they are mostly always engaged in private, personal projects, if they are not too dissilusioned with life - dissilusionment at this stage reflects a belief that is left reverberating from the 2nd stage of individuation, if one of these people is not willing to act on their innate gifts and abilities, it means that they have not fully stepped into the void and are in some way still holding onto some past wound. they need to step into meaninglessness and depression, retracting from the outside world is the doorway to the inspiration.

some of these people become inspired through meditation, or some form of spiritual practice - they become enlightened to the nature of themself.

the largest amount of people in society belong to the consensus. this amount decreases through the individuated and spiritual stages.
simply put:

consensus = 70 %

individuated = 25%

spiritual = 5%

very rough statistics

the concept of time can break down for these people. in the conformist stage the person views time as a means for productivity, which they see as work as a means for survival. from the 3rd stage of individuation onwards through the spiritual stages, the person has an expanded view of time and space. this is how einstein managed to conceptualize these 2 in a different way..

extremely creative and able to see things in a totally different way to those in the consensus and earlier individuated stages. this person serves as an inspiration to others in society. their work is always based on their innate gifts, which have not been taught to them - they simply 'have them'.

summary: this person is inspirational, revolutionary, steels fire from the 'gods' and brings it back to society to make change.

the person in the 2nd stage is totally polarized from society, because of their beliefs. in the 3rd stage, the person is engaged in work for the benefit of society and may take up any position within that same social structure. they are in the world, but not of the world. again, their persona may mask the unusual and revolutionary ideas this person has. they often go unnoticed - they have enormous potential. there may be a brief fling with spirituality, but they will always return to themselves as the final authority.

spiritual stage of experience


it is important to distinguish between spirituality and religion. religion belongs to the consensus, the religious person has not yet stepped through the phases of individuation and is therefore still 'commanded' by dogma. the spiritual person engages in practices that inform them of this phase of reality, they always cross reference information they receive against their own intuition, rather than simply having blind faith.

1) as said earlier, the progression from one stage to the next is denoted by meaningless and even depression. in the 3rd stage, the person's desires are seen through the needs of their ego. in the spiritual stage the person begins to feel very small in relation to the collective, they may attribute this feeling as a response to a 'calling'.
humility begins to take the place and they in some form desire to 'serve' others.

many people who are actually in the individuated stages believe themselves to be spiritual. the reason for this, is that their ego's have been so traumatized by the individuation process that they turn to spiritual teachings in order to find a reason for the 'un-deserved' suffering. they also turn to spirituality to 'heal' the wounds they believe have been caused by this suffering. the point is, the suffering and 'dissilusionment' which follows, is the basis for them to find their identity away from the consensus state. you can always tell that this type of person is travelling through the individuated stages, because they will not yet fully have comprehensive knowledge of their own identity and will not be able to self actualize their life based on their own desires. there always exists the fear of some external authority, be that the judgement of others, or what might happen if they throw all caution to the wind and left everything behind - starting a new life from fresh.

in the first spiritual stage, the person desires to serve others and does not expect anything in return. they deserve to 'purify' their ego from the 'distorted desires' mentioned earlier, which are inherent to the ego (the shadow side). this process can begin in the 3rd stage of individuation (be the change you want to see in the world) note: many people recite that gandhi quote - the difference between them and 3rd stage indivuation / 1st stage spiritual, is that these people live it.

3rd stage individuation and 1st stage spiritual, in various degrees have some innate psychic capacity. the selfless service and spiritual practices of 1st stage spiritual people develop this 'ability' to a greater extent. these people also begin to have visions which seem to explain to them the nature of what is deemed as the 'g' word

2) the person in the 2nd stage can start to attract followers, because of what they seem to know about reality, 'god' and the souls journey through the ages. in every case i have seen this person has been directed by their ego. they may have moments of true inspiration (spiritual), but it is always seen that they either need their 'followers' to prop their ego up in some way, and / or are i suppose, fake guru's. the thing is, all truth is communicated at the level of the thinking mind, be it here or anywhere else. the basis of 'reality' is not the product of the thinking mind, nor is it dependent upon the person who can abstract 'truth'. truth is the need of the mind which thinks. its meaning is the communication itself. it can go no further than this. i think that spirituality is the ego's procession from chaos to peace. it is a way of developing the character so that the person cannot be harmed by life's circumstances (which of itself is fair enough). the person in the 2nd spiritual stage is the master of character development, they can understand in a second, the deepest needs of those they come into contact with and reflect those needs back to them. it is in this way they gain followers. their followers are usually dissilussioned / traumatized and seeking validation in some way. this person is happy to validate them, because they are validated in return. the product of the union between spiritual master and follower is greater spiritual gifts, like psychic ability, visions, manifestations, healing ability, etc..

as shown in the symbol, these people oscillate between spiritual unison they 'believe' to be outside of this reality and ego based needs inside this reality (in the form of the need for validation from others). the unison outside of this reality still only happens in the mind. there is no outside, or inside - only the same thing assuming different forms i.e. the 'you' who 'thinks' theyre reading 'this' and the me who 'apparentely' wrote it

every process from consensus to spiritual is directed by the ego. from the consensus to individuated stages - the ego is their own. in the spiritual stage - the ego is called 'god'. freud nabbed this in his description of superego. as he aptly noted, the more you follow the superego's wishes, the more guilty it makes you. i only see guilt as the need for people to wish to become 'pure'. that purity is attained in the next stage of individual experience

3) this is the person who reflects some form of 'cosmic consciousness'. whether people believe in a deity or not, (i do not) is completely irrelevant if you are one of the rare few to meet one of these people. they are the essence of humility, they dont seem to need sex, this form of sexual ascetism is not based on the suppression of their desires - the desire for sexual expression simply does not exist in them. this person, it seems does not possess the distortions expressed by the shadow side of the persona, but they totally accept the person that does. they see everything as a manifestation of. they possess the spiritual magic we hear about in myths. if you ever meet a person in this stage, it will change the way you think about everything

theres not much more i can say about this person.

i learnt this description of life from a system of esoteric astrology a few years ago, although simplified - the facts stated here should obviously seem true to the person reading. i have adapted it in several ways in order to explain it in a way that can be expressed to people who do not use astrological language. i woke up one morning with the symbols in my head and they seem to fit. there is one stage that this esoteric system has not recognised - which is the system playing out as itself. it was believed by the man i learnt it from that each person progresses from consensus to spiritual over large periods of evolutionary time (from life to life). i dont see this. this system reflects the ego's transition between states, yes, but a person doesnt have to travel from consensus to spiritual to become enlightened / liberated. liberation / enlightenment can happen at any stage. if liberation / awakening happened at 2nd stage consensus, it would leave the system playing out by itself, without any person acting within that stage, or any other for that matter. the spiritual person 'thinks' they have attained a higher stage of evolution to the individuating person, but this only exposes their ignorance - the system plays itself out and has nothing to do with the actions of any individual 'inside' it. a description of liberation could be made in this way - simply remove anything personal and add no story to what has been said:

its not that i swim, but

it is possible for a person to swim in the system of life.

a person can die in the game of life.

anything that happens is the system playing itself out.

everything that happens is the system playing itself out.

also, a further adaption is the application of the symbols. i realised that they can be used as an oracle to answer questions to 'problems' that people in the various stages may find they have at any point of their lives. the answer can be found by analyzing the symbol directly to the right of the one that represents the problem. i.e, if you look at the symbol representing 2nd stage individuated and see that the problem is not knowing in which direction to turn to achieve something. the 'answer' attained by analyzing the next stage is to stay in one place, with no interruption. the direction to take will be intuited, you should then follow this intuition to the completion of the desire it represents.

i also think that an analysis of this system alongside the symbols will increase the intuitive faculties of the person who works with it, but i cant really be bothered to test it further

peace

Tuesday, 24 August 2010

list of sentences that might create ego-death

ill keep adding to this list over time for as long as i can be asked..

1) the expression of anything can only communicate the limitation of that things existence, i.e. a punch is definitively a punch and nothing else.. (the only thing that can be perceived is the thing/'s perceived)

2) emotions are complete of themselves and do not lead to other states of feeling
e.g, anxiety does not lead to fear, or anger. each of these emotions 'describe' their completion and there is no timeline creating alternate states

3) alternate realities and dimensions are the superimposition of imagination onto this reality. there is no alternate reality, but for what this physical reality allows to be projected onto it. this is the only 'place' there is

4) the after-life can only be perceived by the living. (near death experiences and spiritual visions are only experienced by the living) (communication with the departed is only 'experienced' by the living) there is no after-life, but for 'life' perceiving something after itself. this perception only happens here

5) a beautiful person denotes the existence of beauty and not the person it is projected onto

Saturday, 12 June 2010

thoughts, feelings and the perceived world

i think it was schopenhauer who said there is but a miniscule degree between extreme heat and extreme cold. i dont agree with this

from my point of view, there is no difference between any object

all 'difference' exists within the apparent organism

you can think anything you want about a thing. no matter how hard you try, the relationship between yourself and the object doesnt change. it cannot change. it is completely fixed. the only thing that changes is the thought and feelings/sensations which are 'triggered' as we relate to the object.

there is nothing here, other than an organism perceiving a difference between objects and as a result (through time) changing its relationship to itself in relation to that difference, via feelings and sensations which reinforce and validate the initial thought

an emotion is a sustained oscillation between thoughts and feelings

we can have an emotional reaction to a 'thing' eg, to be disgusted by racism. the only thing happening here is this dance between thoughts and feelings. this dance is the only thing that can create a difference between events as varied as witnessing a racist act and eating ice cream

as i walk up a flight of stairs, this organism has a physical response, it can become tired. what happens here is that the flight of stairs falls into the background of perception and the organism relates to itself in motion, by becoming tired. the organism then 'thinks' that motion via the (perceived) 'staircase' is responsible for the 'sense' of it 'feeling tired'

the light of the outside world does not travel 'into' and act upon the organism. i dont fully know how to explain this yet, but i know that it is not what is happening

within the 'idea' of an organism, there exists the cortex for perception (so we believe). the organism perceives difference in the imaginary outside world and changes its relationship to itself (via thoughts and 'sense' feelings) as a product of this illusory difference. this is the basis of the world which changes - it only changes for the organism. there is nothing outside, but the same thing..

HOW TO CREATE THIS THING CALLED REALITY

imagine an organism which perceives variation where none exists

change the organisms relationship to itself, by making thought malleable

give feelings the 'power' to reinforce thought and vice versa

there doesnt need to be 6 billion people, an earth or universe

there only need be one organism perceiving 'different' things at different 'times'
including the perception of other organisms. when in truth there will only be the one

the organism will 'think' it sees events and other organisms. it will feel different things based on its individuality when this happens

the organism will think its on a planet and that this planet is a part of a system of planets at different times of its existence. this will not be the case. the 'totality of its existence will be represented by the immediate events happening in the 'present' moment. one example of this could be a journey to a place. this 'journey' is the totality of existence for that 'person' at that 'time', another example could be the arrival to the place the person was travelling to, this event is the totality of its existence at that 'moment'. the journey does not 'lead' to the place - they are not connected. they are totalities of themselves. they will be replaced by different 'totalities' at 'different' (so called) times. these totalities do not happen on a planet, there is no planet until there is the 'perception' of a planet, the perception which represents its own totality at that moment

the organism may marvel at the wonder of its existence, but the thing is..

this 'marvel' is but a thought, triggering a feeling

Monday, 7 June 2010

repulsion is attraction and repulsion

you cannot be repulsed by a thing

unless attraction brings
it close enough for you to be
repulsed by it

what if? is nothing more than what if?

we treat 'what if?' as if we are about to embrace a fork in the road,
foreseeing our perceived desire and its opposite (which we do, or do not want)

'what if?' is an entity of itself

it does not stand between opposing desires

it does not embrace, or offer 'choice'


'what if?' is a thought which triggers feelings of uncertainty, or vice versa

the two harmonize, through feeding from eachother

this fades, only when we are confronted with the reality
of what was always going to 'happen'

is there the precognition of this 'happening'?

yes, a precognition is realized as 'theory' through a thought embracing
the opposite of the perceived desire

the thought perceived as 'theory' triggers the emotion of uncertainty,
which in turn prepares a person for the reality to come

'what if?' is a shimmering vessel of uncertainty and insecurity

it is perfect


and temporary

it is as temporary as the thing it prepares us for

Tuesday, 27 April 2010

choice

people 'think' they have free-will, but thats it -

its just a thought

Monday, 29 March 2010

it is easier to rid the world of love than racism

there are those people who stand on the picket line and oppose this thing called racism. they are in my mind, quite frankly - a bunch of fucking idiots

it is easier to rid the world of love than racism

racism has no intelligible qualities, it cannot be put to debate, it cannot be educated out of existence, or rationalized

it is pure hatred. the kind that sees something of ethnic variation to itself and is repulsed to the point of murderous rage

these people who 'vote' for racist political parties, because they see 'ethnics' taking their jobs are not racists. they are ignorant - they can be educated, they can at some point be exposed to a point of view that may shatter their original opinion and they can even feel remorse for what they once 'thought'

the true racist does not act out in the world of debate and ideas. they do not intellectualize hate. they cannot. racism has no home in the political world. its agenda is to murder this ethnicity, which is so visible and so repulsive. the home of racism is the back alley, hidden in the mind of this world. a most private place in the human frame.

they will never share it. they cannot

but they will secretly greet it in those who are brave enough to act

those who are brave enough to kill

to attempt is not enough

the political right wing are not racists. they are intellectual / emotional manipulators. this is what arouses them

the racist is aroused by murder

you do not know this hate, but you know this love

the love that has you make love

and want so much of this person that you cannot get close enough

you cannot be more 'inside' them, or they inside you

this attraction so deep, so un-quantifiable

seen through the lens of repulsion so deep,
so un-quantifiable

what will it have you do?

there is no way out

it is home

here

and will never have killed enough

........................................

what is racism?

i was thinking this the other day

racism is a combination of at least these four emotions

fear, anger, attraction and repulsion

what do you think?

Sunday, 14 March 2010

i am against the image of myself


i want to be on that balcony looking out..

but then i would not be the one who is observing this image, from this viewpoint

if someone else were there to see this image, with me in it - i would happily stand on that balcony and forfeit this view, in the knowing that this was the image being seen

death of a rising star

it is quite easy to fall into the belief that life is about fulfilling our potential

how crippling this becomes for the person who cannot quantify their desires to achieve

this state in which we find

and support them

to tell them they could be so much more.
is it possible they could become addicted to this?

i think the real question is, could we love and accept them as they have presented themself and not expect anything else?

as many have lived and died without realizing what was possible in them - the soil is as rich and equally untouched

and if this 'acceptance' were to ignite in them a new state

then this is where they shall be

Tuesday, 2 March 2010

thought is its own meaning

there is nothing to oppose the mind as it imposes itself onto things, because opposition only exists in the mind

Sunday, 28 February 2010

guilt

if you feel guilty for the way you have treated someone in the past, it does not necessarily mean you ever loved them

Friday, 26 February 2010

why and because

'because' happens when we analyze the opposite side of something we are looking at with the hope of finding the mid-point between the two things

we are happy with the solution - which we call 'why'

but it is not why, it is no more than the mid point between two things which are seen as not whole

truth changes 'because' of this

wholeness

wholeness has no regard for the state of its separate parts

if there was a 'god' it could not care for our good, or ill

it would be whole regardless

eg, if i were alive, or dead

the 'whole' would be whole in either case

it would be whole, with me in it

or with me not in it

both realities are equal and complete
in and of themselves

i

ego is the most efficient protection imaginable

it protects itself

not you

you believe that you are it

it is not you

it is purely external, in that it can only see itself in the reflection of other things

it has no subjective reality

thinking you are the ego creates a subjective reality which reinforces the idea that you exist

you become the external thing that ego has attached itself to

reality

if you awaken in the night time dream (lucid) you feel as though you have control and can change the dream to suit your needs

if you are awoken spontanaeously in the daytime dream (waking life), you realize that you never had any control and so called 'life' is happening without your input

at night you become the dreamer

in the day, you are the one being
dreamed

it is the daytime that wakes up - the conscious mind follows

and then 'you' are..

but you are not and could never be - until you are the one who is dreaming

Tuesday, 2 February 2010

childhood


some adults see childhood

as something which morphs into
youth

and youth as something which morphs
into adulthood

adulthood as something which
morphs into old age

and old age as something which morphs
into death

they treat children as something
which must be protected from death

youth as something which must prepare
for adulthood

and adulthood as something which becomes
old

they do these things

nothing

nothing lasts forever..






























































it just keeps on going

Sunday, 24 January 2010

time is a physically manifested thing

everything is the same thing

pretending to be every thing

in the form of some thing

we will never find what we are
looking for

it was never lost

Saturday, 23 January 2010

Sunday, 17 January 2010

religion

people are only religious when they are awake

those who think they think too much

the fact that the rational mind simply
labels objects

and is purely focussed on
this

is seen by some, as a reason to over-throw
the thinking mind

but this is still the mind
labelling an object

judgement

judgement poses no problem

the problem is the preference
beneath the judgement

Thursday, 14 January 2010

multi-culturalism

one of the more prodigious sights ive witnessed

for pessimistic thinkers

the absolute value of hopelessness is to be without hope

whereas hope contains hopelessness within itself

hope is the better of the two

rulership

for those of you interested in astrology (which i am no longer)

aquarius, not pisces rules music

Wednesday, 13 January 2010

eye


its a shame the eye cant see itself seeing

i want to see that

rather than seeing what it sees

dak


found this guy on myspace a few years back

the music really grabbed me

its what it implied - something un-identifiable

he's released a two - sided album on leaving records (a worthy label)

http://leavingrecords.com/experimental-beat-ish/dak-standthis-otherside/